...hate being me..

many days..
i sit and cry..
blaming my fate..
blaming me for being who i am..
i wanna be somebody else..
but who could bare being in my shoes..?

many days..
i scream..!!
i shout..!!
when will all this end..?

where are the love i use to feel..!
the care!?
the warmth of comfort..!

all gone..!!
never to be seen or heard
or even worst
never to be felt..!

im loosing what i loved the most.!
but still im being able to smile..
pretend that things are alright..!

but who knows!!!
WHO KNOWS..!!!
the tears..!!!!
the fear..!!
but me..!!


I HATE BEING ME..!!!!!

..tO mY dEaR fRiEnD..

As I sit here in alone,
I think of my friend
And think about the time
coming to an end.

It's gonna be sad
To say good- bye.
I'll miss you.
I know I’ll cry.

I’ll wait for the day
When u came back
To be with you again
And get on track.

We had so many moments;
Some bad, most great.
I'll always remember the love
And erase the hate.

I don't wanna say good- bye to you
I don't want all the time we had
To come to an end.

written by: FeEzA [ 15 may 2005]

wHy..?

Why am I always blamed over things I don’t do..?
Who is there I have to back me up..
Cheer me up..?
Take my fears and worries?

Who..?

No one..
No one that is there who can bear my journey
But myself..

I tried.. I cried.. I failed..
I tried to face my journey..
I cried the obstacles that came by..
I failed to prove me strong…

As bitter as things cud be..
As sour as things cud be..
Not even a pinch of sweetness there was..

Why am I born as I am..?
I tried all I can..
To please everyone..
To love everyone unconditionally..
To care and cherish..
Every heart every soul..
that are connected to me..

Sometimes..
I think I fall short to understand..
The cries and the fails..
That will actually make me to not be a quitter..
That will make me try everything..

And actually prove to no one I am strong..
But actually..
To prove to myself that I am strong..!

Written by: FeEzA [ 12 june 2006]