SO yesterday.. WHAT today..

i cant sleep...
i also donno why..
i tried reading.. still i cant sleep..
to make it worst.. i dont understand wut im reading..

haiya..
anyways..
i also donno wut to type..
ermm..
last night was fun..
at chilies..
with pathma,kavita,kush,syaf,alia,sarah and leong..
1st time i met leong.. and the rest are familiar faces..
ate and talk till 10.45 then we headed to our own lil nest.
and it was the latest..
can u believe it..?
i dont think ill be coming home that late again...
alone..! especially..
hahahah

have u ever feel wut i feel..?
i guess u dont..
coz if u do..
ud understand..
but it seems like u dont..!

u dont treat people like how u dont wanna be treated..
ditching.. is never a good thing..
coz..
dont tell me u dont mind to be ditched..?

but for myself..
i dont mind at all to be ditched..
but i never ditched..
coz i believe.. dat..
sumthings are meant to be kept forever..

seriously i dont know wut im talking about..
im so tired and in stress...

i wanna be not me..
coz being me is not fun..

i dont even wanna be u..


hurmm..
i miss u..
hope to see u soon..

p/s: there is no 1 specific person for the "U's" that i used.

happy ramadhan.

DAMN IT...!!!!!

boring state of life..

life..
a journey with an unknown destination..

a quote i got from a guy who i bumped into on the way to the cafe today...
a simple quote..a deep meaning..
worn by a simple guy with a cute face.!
so.. wonder the bumming..!?
hahaha..

it was an accident..
that quote made me think about the journey of life..
the journey im in.. the journey ive been in.. and the journey ill be in..

coming back to think..
im not so sure myself if i had a pleseant one all this while..
trying to put my journey in sequence is not sumthing enjoying..
it reminds me of all the suffers..
reminds me of all the crap and rubbish..
reminds me all the people i met..
nice ones and not so nice ones.. and horrible ones..
no one is perfect.. but we can always try to be the best right..?

most of the time..
i regret for being so giving..
regret of being so calm..
regret of being used..
regret of being so forgiving..

but i just cant help it..
maybe its how god have designed me to be..
being so giving..
so calm..
allow myself to be used..
and being so forgiving..

being the person i am..
its not easy i wud say..
life is hard..
my dad wud say i sound lilke a 70 yrs old woman..
and i answerd him by..
go to campus and tell me..

actually its more than just campus..
it is basically everything..
every single thing that ive to tolerate with.. through out life..
life is too short to worry..
but it sure sounds as tho life is a long thing that needs worrying..

i always hold on to the phrase
sumthings are better be left unsaid.. undone..
and its for me to know and for u to find out..
but id rather u not..

coz no one can actually find out..
since im being the person i am..
i write my fears, worries, doubts and sadness out..
but its addressed to no one..
its useless but relieving in a way..

i feel that ive being so much of a person who loves analyzing..
coz i always ask sum people..
why do people do this to us..?
when we know its not nice to do it to ppl..
why are people in this situation to reacts this way..?
but why i dont react as such when im in dat situation..?
too many questions without any answer..

many things happend..
too fast that freaks me out..
changes takin place..
a new way of life..

no more good ol' routine..
uve got to be on ur feet..
and sacrifice all uve got..

wait a minute..
i donno why im so blur..
why can people do it to us..
but we cant do it to them..?

sounds a lil unfair isnt it..?

everything.. kept inside..
wuts taken out is just a big huge..



SIGH....!

a rouGh onE..

hello..
hahahaha..
assigns done..!


but not for long..

tot of up dating my blog..
but the thing is..
its just not comfortable typing on this laptop..
i miss my own lap top..

this month has been quite a bad one..

the only thing i can say is..

....some things are better be left unsaid and undone....

sTrEsS...pOoL..1901... HaPieY..!

today.. a very confusing day id suppose.. i also donno why..
maybe.. because i have many things running in my head kot..
but tkpe la... after the hassle made by monash..
me and syaf we played to games of pool even i lost both of the game..
but still it was a good game.. kan syaf..?
why we played was to kill the time while waiting for alia and jojo..
and the most important thing is to release stress..


soon after dat alia and jojo came..
wanted to play ping-pong but was not available..
since we were hungry.. we went and buy 1901 hotdog..

after makan..
we made our way to indah villa carpark..
and thats it..!
bye bye..!

jumpa esok..!

pic above: the pOol table.. then me and alia, me and syaf then 1901..!!!