sorry.. i cant be perfect..

wow..! 12 0f may..
dats the last i posted??

not bad..
im getting lazier and lazier..
wut to do..
no choice to many assignments need to be done..
but still..
there are some happy moments..
dats never to be missd..

i have 1 more week
prior to my next exam.
JRN..
Dear datin..,
please dont fail me..
i promise ill be good.. [yeah right..!]

i need to pass..
is it to much to ask?
its not asking for a high distinction or anything..
but just a pass..! JUST A PASS..!!
is it to much to ask for..?
i need to take the worries out of my dad..
plzz..plz..plzz..
yaALLAH..
plz pass me..
plzzz..plz..plz..

i promise ill be good to all the creatures
around me..


shheeessshh...!!

how crappy could dat be..?
me being good..?
i dont think so..?
but its worth a try..
maybe next sem..!
perhaps..
ill be someone new..

lately..
hurmm..
i cant even remember what happend to me lately,,
owh ya..!
fell from the stairs..
papa left to goa..!
sob..! sob..!
come back soon pa..
u need to assist me for my exam..!!

but sadly..
papa will only be back
on the 7th of june. which is a week from now..!
dats when my next paper starts..!!
too late..!!!!

NOOOO...!!!!

i hope ill be able to face it..

why is it so hard to bring out
wuts in me..?
wuts bothering me..?
how i wish someone can read me..
tell the "?" dat i have..
without me telling..?
perhaps..
its only me who has
dat "talent" read people..

so i suppose i have to read
my ownself?
why the hell should i read..!!!
i already know wuts going on..!

FINE...!!

just ignore it..!


i dont know is it just me..
but little..little thing
just starts to bother me now..
im adapting..!!!
give me a break..!

but its ok..
papa is coming home soon..
and talk to me..!
things will be cool by then..

i HOPE..!

owh ya..!
ive got some remarks from some peeps dat i know..
they say that im a nice.
person..!
hahaha.. i know i am..
thank u.. thank u..!
bu still nice people like me are hurt..
waaa....waaaa..waaaaa..
why hurt me when i dont hurt you.?
want me to hurt u izzit..?
dont regret aaa... [its a warning..]

but then..
i dont hurt those i love..
so..

dear, all people dat i love..
dont hurt me too....
coz illl never do anything to hurt you all..
so please.. dont hurt me..
ive got nothing in this world..
but the all of you..


but then..




even if u hurt me..
its ok..
i dont care..!

IM SO USED TO IT..!!
get the hint..?
so..
stop ok..?


haih..
wut the hell is this?
it sounds more like a letter to myself..
or perhaps..
a letter or pray to ALLAH.
a letter to datin..
a letter to my papa...
and a letter to my love ones..

ok..
i think i better stop here..
bye bye..

lastly..
here is wut ive got to say..


if u gonna have trouble reading it..
here is wat it says..
[i was going to kill the smartest person on earth,
untill i realize.. suicide is a crime..]