its ok... but till when..?

its true dat: there is nothing fair in this world..

but cant it atleast be almost fair..?

it seems that things are always fair for others..but things are never fair for me..
why do i take too much precautions so that i wont hurt people..?

its always been like that..i try so hard not to break a heart..

but instead im the one who gets dissapointed by people..if its broken by some guy.. an ex or something..

its diffrent..despite having 12 ex's..

i never once got my heart broken like how it is broken now..so frustrating..

perhaps.. "ull always hurt the one you love.."

dat maybe the right phrase..

but how come i try not hurting the one i love..

but im always hurt by the one i love and care for..?a confusing phrase i wud say..too much things.. running in my head now..

last friday during INT tutorials..Dr.Tang asked, "what wud u change or do if ur alive after 300 years?" or sumthing like dat..to his surprise..the answers he got was rather rubbish even some was quite good..

a guy wanted a tail..

2 gurls wanted to be psychic..and all other answers..

funny2 ones...

but when the floor was up to me..

i answerd..

after hearing my answer..he actually suggested me to go see the counselor..

why in the world wud he want me to do that..?

is it because of wut i said..?

my answer was.."if i was to be alive.. wut i would do or change is that..id rather be dead than to think or even do the changes.."

its silly i know..but that is what i want..hahahah.. silly..!silly..! silly!

i once ask someone...

why do poeple hurt us..?

and why do we just keep quiet about it and say its ok..

if its normal to be hurt by people..

why dont we return that "favour"and all she said was.."its ok feeza.."

why u dont return that favour is bcoz ur lucky..

ur lucky that u realize how u want to be treated in life..

so u treat people on how u want to be treated in return..
and its the strong love and care u have for people that keeps u going on saying.."

its ok..."

so. with that..i learned..the phrase "u hurt the one u love" is sumthing subjective..

aiyoooo..

when will all this be over..?

but there are things im looking foward to..
the buke puasa gath this friday..with everyone..
papa's return from penang.. on thursday..
hurmmm...

me and my plain ol' life..